sharing

Hello... (: my name is Jeffrey! nice to meet you all. i hope that there's someone actually reading this.. yeah (:
So, i think that I'll talk about my week... I dont think im really that comfortable right now saying this or if i really have a good reason to share/pour out my heart (or in other words, for the right reason but i shall (must do) anyway!) Okay so i know a lot of you dont know me... (i hope you do) but please take your time and read lol

Okay so, recently, I've been feeling closer to God than that of how i usually do. Before, i would always feel empty and depressed. I wrote a lot about that stuff on my blog (that i havent really made a post on for a while) and i stopped writing on it since i believe that i shouldnt really just say it and hope that people there read it and feel pity. It feels like that i grow more without actually proclaiming it to everyone.

Okay so ill say how i saw God this week... So on monday, when i was going back from the annual (divide it by 52) seekers leadership meetings, i was praying that I'd be nicer to people just generally. But on my elevator, there was a woman who told me that her nephew was killed by someone around the neighborhood and there was a trial going on at that moment. And well, so i was in shock, of course, for a good amount of minutes... and well so i was thinking that God must have wanted to tell me something. Right? So i tried thinking really hard (so i could share something for God sightings on thursday, but it wasnt really the best reason to think of it... more like selfish reasons.. its like. its not from your heart, just from your brain. i hope you understood that, but im going to share about what i was gonna say, i hope that its meaningful still) And i thought that He was telling me that being nice all the time won't matter all the time. Since of course.. what could you when someone dies... Would you just be nice to the person's family or whateveR? What about actually showing something and actually caring? This is just like us Christians. What can we do once we start believing? When God tells you to do something? Will you just sit there and be like, "I believe in You but i won't obey you" or like, "Tell me the Word and i shall obey" kind of stuff. And well that was monday! (: i have much more to share but i think it'll intimidate you guys with the extremely long passages. lol

But generally, i think that i've grown a lot during the week. and i think im still afraid of praying out loud... but i hope i can be more comfortable with that (:

I hope that we can grow together by using this blog. So guys, pass the word on about this blog and try to check it and post something while you're at it. I don't want you guys to make this feel like a responsiblity and go on this... but i think that its a fun thing that i havent done for a while. I hope that we can be more active. Thank you all!! (:

and thanks for reading if you actually did(:

But there is something that i think i need some prayer for. There are some times that I usually am so focused with God and i feel like that I am filled with His wisdom. and there are times when Im not. But when this time comes, i fail to utilize it it shows me that I still have much to learn and well, I'm still growing. Please pray that I won't get too full of myself and so that I can live my life as a witness of God. Lately, for example, like today, i felt so obnoxious and that I didn't let God into my life at all. And also, I've felt that same wisdom i was talkiing about earlier. It's like when I live for myself and not for Him. Even now, i feel like that I didnt write this post for the right reasons. But yeah, please pray for that.

By... Jeffrey (:
God bless.